Hello Visitor! Welcome to my website and personal online ministry. It is good to have you here :)
My name is Brooke. I am a Seventh-day Adventist Christian with a love for understanding all facets of health - mental, physical, and spiritual - and I am especially interested in how they intertwine and intersect.
A little about me...
I don't remember a time when I did not know about God. My mom took me to Sabbath School - an interactive Bible study time - followed by church, starting very young. It just added up and made sense to me that there was a God and that the Bible was the truth. I saw in my heart selfishness and spiritual conflict that only a Savior could solve. And in the world at large I saw malfunction, death, hate, and sin. This matched completely with what I was learning from my teachers at church, as we studied what the Bible said about our fallen world and the condition of our hearts. This congruence convinced me the Bible was true.
I was converted when my kindergarten teacher at the little Wesleyan school I attended asked me if I wanted to give my life to Jesus, and led me in a prayer to give Him my heart. I knew I'd found the Water of Life who alone could quench the thirst of my soul.
I had anxiety issues starting from as early as I can remember, and moderate depression. My health worsened at age 12. I developed crushing major depression, and my anxiety worsened terribly. Then at around 17 I developed psychosis. I lost my hold on reality and adopted strange beliefs. I suffered terribly during those years.
Things got a bit better around age 24 when my mom took me to a Functional Medicine doctor who put me on vitamins and gave me vitamin IVs.
But then things worsened again at age 28, when my health crashed and I was in and out of the hospital with horrific panic attacks, nerve, and liver pain.
Everything culminated in the worst psychotic break of my life, at age 31, where I was so out of it I was trying to open dimension portals with a supposed gift of faith to let the good angels into our dimension to fight off Satan and tip the war in God's direction. None of this was biblical of course. Angels are already here in our world to aid and protect us; they don't need to be let in by manipulating dimensions. And the gift of faith doesn't work that way either. None of this was logical or made any sense. I'd lost my reason completely.
During a forced hospitalization I was finally put on the right medication, and in high enough doses to bring me out of psychosis. As the medication started taking effect, reshaping my brain's connectivity and changing how my thoughts formed, at first I was terrified. The new thoughts felt alien and fundamentally different in form from my prior thoughts, and I thought the medication was making me lose my mind. And then as the new thoughts settled into my perception, it dawned on me that the new thoughts were the sane ones and the old thoughts had been the psychotic ones. I quickly connected the dots, and came to the realization that I'd had various levels of psychotic thinking for the past 14 years. I felt like King Nebuchadnezzar, looking up and praising God after his sanity had been restored.
The Bible made sense again, and meaning returned to my life. Psychosis had been flashy, but felt unsatisfying and nihilistic. Now I could understand the character of God and the deep truths in His Word. I dropped the strange beliefs as it was now clear to me they were nonsensical and not Biblical.
I learned through that experience how important truth and brain health really are. You can't understand or arrive at truth when you're psychotic. Bible truth brings meaning and purpose. There is no real meaning or purpose without it. I could understand how the martyrs would be willing to lose their lives rather than give up points of truth.
From there I learned about natural protocols to further bring back cognition, and I improved mentally even more.
After I came out of psychosis, I was hungry for Bible answers to the "Why" question of why I'd suffered so terribly for so many years. I dug in depth into the Problem of Evil from the scriptures, and I found deeply satisfying answers.
I learned more about free will and how essential of a human right this is. God could not create a universe where human beings could not rebel and still be a loving God. None of us would want a God who forced our family members to worship Him, for instance. We would see that as the worst tyranny, even worse than human evil. Love is not something that can be forced, especially love for God. Personal beliefs and values must be personally chosen by that person, they can't be forced from the outside.
So God created a universe where choice was possible. And then Satan chose to use his power of choice to actualize evil, which was a misuse of his free will. It was never God's will for us to suffer. Satan tempted Adam to sin, and misery and pain entered our world as a result of sin. Psychotic disorders became possible, cancers, and other natural evils, as well as the direct selfish actions of human beings against one another, as we were no longer in harmony with one another.
I am forever grateful to God for His active love in my life! Christianity is a practical religion, and our God is a very practical God. He wants to help us with every aspect of our health from physical to spiritual, to see real change and improvement. He gives us real power to part with sin and "break up our fallow ground" as the Bible puts it, so that fruit can emerge.
I started this website to do my part to spread the truth of God's Word in practical ways to help people prepare for Jesus to come mentally, spiritually, and physically. I hope you will find it helpful. If you have any suggestions for me please email them to me at inhisimage1984@yahoo.com. I am always looking for ways to improve in effectiveness and love.
It is my prayer that Christ richly bless you and empower you in His truth, and give you a living connection with Him through His Word <3
